An Undervalued Courage

It takes a daring woman to see the strength
of remaining soft in a hard world.
To love like you've never been hurt,
when your heart has been broken many times.
I think the greatest act of bravery is to recognize that
loving someone makes you vulnerable,
but refusing to stop.
To be courageous enough
to look that vulnerability in the face and say
"I will not back down,
no matter how many times you try to stop me
I will love boldly."
is a power few people possess.

so many questions and no answers

Is it worth it?
What if I hold myself back and you don't realize how much I want this to work?
Is it worth it?
Could this finally be the time I fall, and he catches me?
Is it worth it?
If not, will I be able to pick myself up AGAIN and start over?
Is it worth it?
Is letting myself fall in love another bad choice, or a good one?
Is it worth it?
Can I pour out my thoughts and feelings without being afraid of the repercussions?
Is it worth it?

The trouble is - there's only one way to find out.

when you can't sleep because the voices and memories won't stop. get it all out on paper.

"those" days

when i think of you
i'm drowning
sinking into an icy pit
of sorrow
suffocating
in repressed silence

- jainedoe